Finally getting around to posting these. I took them earlier this month. Willow was almost 7 months old and Canaan right at 2.5 years old. Goodness people, I'm abundantly blessed to call these two little ones mine. This past weekend I was watching them play at my parents house. At one point it me like new that they are mine. How? How could I possibly deserve such beautiful, amazing kids. The Lords grace is overwhelming. Little gal was just learning to sit up in these photos. Canaan was super into it (not). But I love love love love what I captured of the two of them. So real and so hilarious. and if you want to take a stroll down memory lane, here is our spring pictures from when C was W's age. I keep telling myself we will take family pictures soon, but we'll see if that actually happens. Okay, prepare yourself for cuteness. And no, I have know idea where they get those blue eyes from. Or the curls. But I'll take um:)this kid. he loves his little sister. sometimes a little too much. but she never seems to mind. don't worry, I give her nine million kisses a day.
I love this one. W is smiley AS ALWAYS. Seriously the girl is always smiling. And C hears a siren (his favorite thing in all the world). So perfectly captures their little personalities and hearts. Love it.
Finally. I finally have a few minutes to sit down and knock out this blog post as well as some editing and email responding. My two hours of both babies napping seems to go by quicker and quicker each day, so today, I woke up a little early to finish writing this before babies are up. And by getting up early, I mean Willow fussed in her sleep and woke me up. Thanks Lo. And ignore all the grammatical errors. Ain't nobody nomomma got time to spell check or comma check.
Okay. Adoption. Phew, so much to update. As most of you know by my last post on our fundraiser, we are starting our adoption back up! Whoop! I gave a quick recap in that post, but I'll do so here too (fingers going into mega mode now).
So we started our adoption the summer before C turned one. We completed our Home Study and all paperwork. We were approved and put on the waiting list in October. C turned one on the third. We waited and waited and found ourselves in February. By this point, I was reallllyyyy ready for another baby and frustrated we had been waiting so long. We'd had a few serious looks by 2 birthmoms but both went with families who had no children. Couldn't really be upset about that. And then, unexpectedly, but really expectedly because hello, marriage, we found out I was pregnant. AND BEYOND THRILLED. It was a surprise to us, but seriously the best surprise ever. of all time. Gosh we were so happy. We waited until I was 12 weeks along to share the news with our agency. At that time, they told us we would still remain on the waiting list until I hit 20 weeks gestation. Then we would be "paused" until the baby turned 6 months old. Oh how I reallllyyyyyy didn't want to be put on pause. I was so happy I was pregnant, but also really sad it meant not meeting my other child for even longer. It's hard to explain. The longing I have for our adopted child is just as strong as longing to meet your biological child at the end of the 9 months. But in the adoption case, it would be way longer than 9 months. More like well over a year. I was just ready to have that baby in my arms too. But the Lord is sovereign and so faithful and so perfect in His timing. So, 20 weeks came, and we were put on pause. We prepared for W and enjoyed right where the Lord had us. Willow came in October. She changed our lives with her sweet, chunky cheeks, dimples, preciousness and rolly polly arms. Gosh, I want to eat her up. 6 months FLEW by, and we found ourselves eligible for the waiting list again.
We decided to call our social worker and look into what all it would
entail to be updated. She told us there is a good bit of paperwork to
renew/update, doctor visits and physicals to have redone, and my
favorite, 2 new large fees to pay. When we were paused, these fees did
not exist (they were put into place while we were paused). While it
stinks to have to pay them, I am thankful for them. Both fees go towards
helping the birth mom receive the best care and attention possible.
Total they are $3,000. She also told us that they had several babies in
interim care (where babies go after they are born but don't have a forever family yet) and several birthmoms who haven't picked forever families
yet. She told us how thankful she was we were coming back into the process
because they were low on families open to trans-racial adoption and all
of the babies in care and birthmoms in the process were of another race.
Phew. That means we could potentially get a baby pretty quickly. And
Willow is still so small. It's exciting and terrifying all at the same
time. We got off the phone with her and felt overwhelmed by all the new
information. And that we now needed $7,000 to raise because of the new
fees added in (we raised/paid the other $7,000 before we were paused). We were unsure of when we wanted/felt lead to jump back
into the process.
We spent several weeks in prayer over when to start the adoption back up. Originally, I wanted to start it ASAP. But when April rolled around, we had a peace from the Lord we needed to wait and rest in His timing. And that was a hard decision for me. I'm so ready for this process to get going again, but I also recognize that Willow is still so small. She still needs so much of my attention daily. Would it be fair to her or a new baby? Could I handle two that were so little so close in age? Would C be able to handle another baby so soon? But will my son/daughter be in interim care and I miss out on some milestones because of selfishness or fear to take on three under three? I felt 100% conflicted, overwhelmed, and unsure. I can't say enough how thankful I am for the Lord's guidance and my husband's leadership. While I may have been unsure, I could rest in the Lord and my husbands leadership. I know I basically just repeated myself in those two sentences, but I can't say it enough. I'm so grateful for a Husband I can easily follow because of his obedience and walk with the Lord.
We both felt peace with going slow and decided to take this time to work on paperwork, redoing our profile book, and raising some/if not all of our remaining funds. Then, at the end of June, we will reevaluate where our family is and if we are ready to be on the waiting list. So, as of now, we won't be "officially" on the waiting list until late June at the earliest (as of right now, one thing I've learned through this adoption process is to always leave my yes on the table and that there is no real "planning" to be done. So much of the time table is out of my hands and in the agencies or the Lords). I really really want to hold this baby in my arms and have he/she be apart of our family this second, but I also want to be wise in our timing and consider our other children's needs. Prayer in the area would be most appreciated. I know it will all go according to His will and plan. I'm so thankful I can rest in that. Pray for our birthmom. We long for an open adoption and good relationship with her. We want her (and the father) to be an active part of this child's life. We want them there for the birthday parties, the random Saturday trip to the zoo, and all the holidays inbetween. We know that means it could sometimes be messy, but our lives are not about our happiness. They are about our holiness and being more like Jesus. And open adoption will only draw us closer to Him, display His glory and love for the church.That's the most ideal situation for us, but it could be that she only wants a partial open adoption or a closed. And if that's the case, the Lord is still good, and we will trust in Him.
a GIANT THANK YOU to everyone who bought a Grizz shirt during our last fundrasiser. We went through two rounds of shirt orders and collectively raise $4,000!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WHAT EVEN RIGHT NOW???? When we came up with the idea, we were just hoping to raise close to a thousand. Never in our wildest dreams did we expect to raise 4k. The Lord is undoubtedly good. We were/are so blown away by how the Lord moved during that fundraiser. It only confirmed that we are where He wants us to be. So, we have $3,000 left to raise. Which is a lot of money to us, but not a lot in terms of adoption. That probably doesn't make sense to some, but it does to us. We are so close!
Blah! I feel like this whole post was a blubbering mess with no clear outline or flow. HA! I guess that's what happens when you're typing like a mad man trying to fit it all in before baby wakes up. And right on cue, I hear Willow now.
here we are, another month has passed and somehow, I love you more than the previous 6 months. I didn't think it was possible. You are seriously the sweetest little human alive. I swear I must kiss your cheeks a good 200 times a day. I just can't stop. I can't and I wont. In fact you are asleep right now and after I finish posting this, I'm going to go kiss your sweet sleeping cheeks. ughhhh love it!
You are probably somewhere around 16-17 pounds. You're still in size 2 diapers and 6-9month clothing. You sleep through the night (8pm-8am), take 2 naps a day, and eat fruit or veggies twice a day. Still nursing like a champ, and I love it! You have joined the sitting up club. You pretty much either want to be held or sitting. You have a serious addiction to puffs. AND YOU HAVE ONE TOOTH!!! popped through just a few days before you turned 7 months. You are super giggly now, and if you are awake, your tongue is stinking out. It's adorable. Your favorite person is easily big brother. But you do love you some little girls. Jovie can make you smile so big. You are absolutely a mommas girl though and demand to be held constantly. You love putting your feet in your mouth and you've started to talk up a storm (although da da is all you ever say). You are also getting more and more squishy and I'm basically in heaven. Your hair has started curling up when we are outside, so I'm thinking you may get brother's curls. And I still can't tell if your hair is going to go blonde or stay strawberry blonde. But I do know one things, those blue eyes aren't going anywhere! Your little personality is so calm and laid back right now. I can't wait to see how it develops.
Goodness you are so loved. Jesus knew how desperately I would need you in my life and for that, I'm so thankful. You bring endless amounts of joy to us. We love you more than any words could say.
UPDATE: now taking a second round of orders until FRIDAY, MAY 15th!!
(for memory sake: originally posted April 24th)
So glad I can finally talk about our adoption process again! I'll go into full detail about it in a separate post tomorrow (so come back for that), but today I just wanted to give you a brief timeline to catch everyone up to date. We are currently pursing a domestic adoption.
-started the adoption process in May of 2013
-home-study completed and on waiting list in Oct 2013
-learned we were pregnant Feb 2014 with Willow
-our agency put our adoption on hold in May 2014 so we could have bonding time with W
-W born in October of 2014
-our agency allows us to go back active this month, April 2015.
-We have decided to take April, May, and June of this year to redo our paperwork, update our profile book, and raise a few funds before we want to be put back on the waiting list at the end of June/early July 2015.
We have chosen to wait a few more months for various reasons, and we hope to better mentally prepare (if that's even possible) for three children under three. Haha. We are so thankful for the Lord's sovereignty and guidance, and that we can rest assured in His perfect timing and will.
Now that you're briefly updated. Lets talk about the Memphis Grizzlies.
Adoption and Memphis Grizzlies have one thing in common: Us. We love them both. Upon watching a play off game earlier this week, the genius idea to combine the two struck. My husband works for FUND THE NATIONS. They are a company devoted to helping others raise funds for missions, adoptions, etc. So, with the help of a sweet friend donating her talented handwriting skills, our shirt was born. I love supporting our Grizz, but have never seemed to find a "girly" shirt for the team that I truly loved. So, the idea to create one and have the proceeds support our adoption seemed golden.
There are TWO OPTIONS for all you lady Grizz fans:
Heathered Blue: GRIT. GRIND. repeat.
printed on a soft Canvas brand shirt. Fits wonderfully and feels amazing. Unisex sizing.
Heathered Grey: GRIT. GRIND. repeat
printed on a soft Canvas brand shirt. Fits wonderfully and feels amazing. Unisex sizing.
(GENDER NEUTRAL) MEMPHIS WE GRIND HERE:HEATHERED NAVY
printed on a soft Canvas brand shirt. Fits wonderfully and feels amazing. Unisex sizing.The first two shirts were made for the ladies, but after getting some feedback that the guys felt left out (mainly husband haha) we decided to introduce the "We Grind Here" shirt. It's for both men and women. Sizes XS-3XL available. It is only offered on this Heathered NAVY shirt.
SHIRT SIZES: Extra Small-3XL. Fit: These shirts are a little less generous, so if you are between sizes, order a size up. I can wear a small comfortably, but I can also wear a medium without it appearing too baggy. They are ULTRA soft and I personally love the fit! Here is a sizing chart for more reference
TO ORDER: Please read everything below thoroughly
Simply click the "Donate" button below. ALL SHIRTS ARE $23.00 AND I WILL ONLY BE TAKING ORDERS UNTIL FRIDAY, MAY 15th!!!. On Saturday, May 16th I will submit the order and have the shirts to you in 2 weeks at the earliest.
I WILL NOT ACCEPT CASH OR CHECK IN PERSON. Please buy through the paypal button (you don't have to have a paypal account, you can check out as a guest) since this is the easiest way to keep up with all orders. Also, at check out, please leave your MAILING ADDRESS, WHICH SHIRT AND COLOR, AND SHIRT SIZEin the NOTES SECTION.
Again: all shirts are $23.00.
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU from the bottom of our hearts for supporting our adoption!!!!
if you have any further questions, please email me at Katie dot kubler at yahoo dot com.
If you'd like to read more about our process, come back tomorrow or click the label below titled "Domestic Adoption" for past blog posts.